... of hits and misses

Let's see, what happened this year... And yah, I'm going through some boring stuff today. Just a warning before you actually WANT to read...

Lately I've been reliving the my old self. I despised that person. I'm going to write this person off, as my only way to keep my sanity. I'm serious man, it's hard to keep at it, you know. It's the same reason when you understand how whiskey is drunk; the same how spicy and sour food attacks the heart; the same why we get mesmerised or stare into space.

A JC class gathering coming! Fantastic! First time in 3 years, and finally I get to see them coming together... Only, I'm not going. I've been an outcast of the class for as long as I can remember. The hurt of knowing the class is perfect without you - OUCH. I didn't even know what to reply to the invitation. JC saw my first case of depression. Yupz. More depressed than anyone squashed by a whale. *cold wind blow* Hey, laugh! You owe me!

And come to think of it, I don't feel like going any gathering. There's just full of "why ah?" in my mind. It's kinda tiring at times lah. Even more tiring when you have to answer "WHY?" Eh, cut me some slack lah... Look sian? No why lah. Feel sad? No why lah. "Why" han zi lah, "why"...

Eh, why this year got so many pple stressed ah? Here say want to stop blogging, there say feel a bit lonely.... Lucky the numbers I still can count with my two hands ah. Don't like that lah. You stop bloggin ah, I less one blog to read. So sad! Brandon is right about knowing more about people through blogs. And, well, the loneliness issue has been discussed before.

Well, if I'm to look at myself, I guess issues just pop up in front of me lah. Often, it's 言者无心，听者有意 case, then think too much. Just like every year. Yeah, something like, my bet is on my failure to learn Japanese proficiently in my next Japanese module. Just not good enough lah, cannot ah?

Oh yah, freaking Mac users. Stop reprimanding Windows users! We're not some third class citizens!

Relac ah, Nic. Haha...

Hmm... what's so happy about this year? Well, the fact that I'm living loh. Grown 1 year less of being naive. Learnt that I can do really bad for a paper and still pass. Exposure to baito. Learnt more about Chinatown and other misc places. Knowing JMC/JSS (most impt!). Constant desire to learn. Constant desire to take a break from learning. Explored MoS. Made new frens majoring in math with me. Class outings. Finally being able to sing a Japanese song at karaoke. Hikki came out with 2 new singles. Strengthen my relationship with my overseas frens and cuz (singular. not pulral heh) Actually took six modules for my sem. Got to know that I shld avoid JS dept pple. (THAT'S RIGHT. It's a good thing. Exception to Amazaki sensei) My first baito kids returned mail. Learnt a new dance routine. Saw Hikki's Bohemian Summer. Discovered LASH. Learnt that own not equals owe. Learnt how small Singapore is. Learnt to know my place.

oK, enough crap. Resolutions? Simply to let my 2006 rock.

One more resolution? Umm... less boring posts like these. Yea.

One more? Umm... try to be lonely. Yah, since everyone's complaining about it. Ha!

ONE more? Umm... umm... be more beng? Really, because 池袋最棒! Oosh!

ONNNEEE more? Your head lah!

Enjoy this last day of 2005. Because we need more "special days" in the lower half of the year. Not enough public holidays leh... Well, great 2006 ahead! I know... somehow! Or just let yours be better than mine! Till next year, out.

pg - IWGP

池袋最棒！!

And...... HAHAHAHA......

... of dental and porridge

Today's dental a bit special. Why? I have no idea why I the dentist placed the rubber across the front of my teeth. So, I cannot eat properly or speak properly (not that I could before... hehe...). I can't open my mouth properly for goodness sake! Kinda beats the purpose of changing the colours of the modules...

Need a reason why I didn't go for 2nite's exco dinner? There.

Back to the topic, I didn't have the Tiong Bahru chee quay this time. Not after the vomitting incident. So headed home for porridge. Rained again while I was having it. No complains though. The purplish blue dusk sky, orange glow from the street lamp light, and the visible rain drops falling under the glow, accompanied by the light patters of rain and far-away engines of vehicles passing by. 很有 きもち leh!

Please don't kill me for putting Chinese, Japanese and Singlish together... What can I say? I'm a twisted linguist. :p

pg - cries

Orh! I know why Hikaru (IWGP) cry all the time liao! So ka...

... of CORS

Every single time I bid for the modules, it seems that there is a certain process I'll go through.

1) Plan my ideal mods
2) Fustration at timetable clashes
3) Discover new modules that I've never paid attention to
4) Take something I don't really think I would

Let's see what I've discovered this sem... Umm, Introduction to Narrative. Something about narratives in film and literature. It's suspicious when the module code is GEK1XXX, and perclusions are EL4XXX modules. Another module, Ideas and Appraoches to Architecture. Though it's not a sem 2 module, still it's interesting and clearly neglected.

Haizz... So many outings. Going out again... Save the rain, eh?

... of belated greetings

Merry Christmas to all!
And to all a good time!

ad - CORS

Remember NUS folks, this Tues is the start of bidding.

... of GEMS

Yea, it's some customer service excellence evaluation thingy. So sorry Andy!

Who's Andy? It's some guy working at Clementi McD after the midnight hour. And he passed me this GEM card to fill. Those who have filled the card before, you'd know there are three boxes to tick.

AFM ticked only two. *gulp*

On to misc stuff, I have to wait another month before my phone plan reaches 21 months. But my 7210 is already acting funny. Just so you guys know, if I don't pick up ur call, or my phone is off, you know my phone got problem liao.

Argh... Fantastipo is ringing in my head. It's retro trap!

So... who has the mp3? Hehe...

... of MoS

Invitation. Free. Hanging out with long time no see friends like Anxiang and Songming. What more reason do I need to find out about Ministry of Sound?

Only problem was it's a Thursday, and the main floor played HOUSE. Horrible House. Hectic House. Well saved though, by the other rooms available. Comfy, white "PURE" played Chill, caged "SMOOVE" played R&B, and the heavenly retro "54" played retro and disco. Couldn't have the techno room. Is there even one?

Thank goodness we went early, because the queue was short. Of course, the party hasn't started, so we booked a table while the 10 of us ordered drinks. Didn't know half of them though. Haha... They are 1-for-1 till 11pm, so remember that people.

Of course, the party started in the other rooms other than the main floor. So? Let's head for SMOOVE. The DJ I thought was quite cool with his scratch, but it proved to be the only thing he knew. The beat kept running, a little down on atmosphere on some parts. Some dude climbed onto the bass box and did really cool legwork. Standing beside the bass box, I can't help but be mesmerised by it.

Excitement is contagious. ALCOHOL-FILLED M* (AFM) had to attempt to try. AFM did, and perhaps went a little crazy over head-banging and hands movements. How crazy? Enough to have someone poke AFM through the fence. AFM's back was to the fence, and behind the fence tables for drinking. AFM thought it was a fake sensation, and CONTINUED. 2nd poke. AFM looked around again, noticing two girls 2 metres away. Uh-oh, too much liao. Irritating someone liao. Cut down. Third poke. The girls waved, and mouthed "Hi!"

Haha... too bad, gotta leave for 54 liao. Ciaoz. I kept slapping myself on my way to the 2nd level to keep myself from smiling. Hey, not everytime you get picked up by girls loh. The red light really helps I guess...

......

......

*SLAP*

oK anyways!! 54 was a heaven for retro lovers. You get a touch of disco with retro beats. Though I had only spent 5 minutes there, the remix of "Billie Jean" was fantastic. Not for the Zouk para-para, but much more freedom in dance as compared to R&B. Which brings me to say, if you don't have an open mind for retro, stay away from me. Let me know if you don't like retro, so I will avoid it. Don't just keep quiet. I cannot read minds one! (right, the ah-beng accent can't really get through here...)

5 minutes of retro. Only 5 minutes of retro is all I can get out of the 5 hours I had. 1 out of 10 people likes retro, and statistics may prove worse than that.

Back to the table. More house. Ack.

5 minutes. :'(

pg - names

Realised I can't have a girlfriend named Hikaru. I'd be thinking of someone else everytime I hear her name!

Jumping back into iWGP. Woohoo!

... of... of...

*sigh*

Got more problems than I thought. :/

Onyx, onyx...

... of returns

My very first baito group sent an email to me!!
*touched touched touched*
*big smile*

i don't miss you

(Sing along to Aerosmith's "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing")

I could live with it
Just to stop your breathing.
There's me smile when you're disappearing,
While you're far away I'm grinning.
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.
I could stay lost in this moment, forever...
Every minute spent with you
It's a moment in terror...

Oh I want to close my eyes!
Oh it's a such a pain, you see.
I don't miss you, babe,
So please, PLEASE! Dun come back to me.
Cause even nights I dream of you...
Nightmares would seem like sweetest dreams!
I don't miss you, babe,
Oh, just let me miss everything!

Lying close to you,
My life force you're sucking.
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering it's me you're cursing.
And when I see your eyes,
Oh my god we're together!
All my blood I would spill
If I had to spent this moment forever and ever.

Oh I want to close my eyes!
Oh it's a such a pain, you see.
I don't miss you, babe,
So please, PLEASE! Dun come back to me.
Cause even nights I dream of you...
Nightmares would seem like sweetest dreams!
I don't miss you, babe,
Oh, just let me miss everything!

Every escape chance I'll miss,
I could never dodge your fist.
I just wanna escape you, away from you, just like this.
I just wanna slap you twice,
When my bank book's in demise.
i know I'm trapped in this moment
Till the last breathe of mine!

Oh I want to close my eyes!
Oh it's a such a pain, you see.
I don't miss you, babe,
So please, PLEASE! Dun come back to me.
Cause even nights I dream of you...
Nightmares would seem like sweetest dreams!
I don't miss you, babe,
Oh, just let me miss everything!

Oh I want to close my eyes!
Oh it's a such a pain, you see.
I don't miss you, babe,
So please, PLEASE! Dun come back to me.
Cause even when I try,
The halls of Hell is Heaven yeah,
I don't miss you, babe,
Oh, just let me miss everything!

Oh I want to close my eyes!
Onegaishimasu!!... sure si (死)!
I don't miss you, babe,
Oh, just let me miss everything!

- Henry Rogers

... of comrades

You don't leave a comrade behind for your own interest. 2 years of army should have taught you that.

... of baito days

Wow... these past two weeks have been busy sia. Not only packed with baitos, but lots of playing and shopping too!

Baitos had its up and downs, and I'm still traumatized by the "Black Friday" session. It's gonna be a permanent fear for me before every baito. Never knew I could make "enemies" in such a such time, like in just 10 min!! :'( Seriously, it's putting thoughts in my head like finding a replacement for the coming Friday baito. Anyway, thanks to them, I got another "song" coming out. Just need to get a little time off to do it though.

Apart from the dinners and games, I also did some shopping! Spent 200+ in 2 days. Yikes. And I haven't finished revamping my wardrobe yet. Got the "bowling shoes" which I'm rather proud of. I'd probably gonna wear it even it doesn't match my outfit. Who's in for a shopping trip?

Just got to know Nic's fren, Jenson. Why am I mentioning this? Because I've named Nic, Jenson and Brandon as the "Buaya 3". Hahahaha... For further details, please use your imagination. Will rename once I get the Japanese equivalent...

Off to sleep! Leaving my iPod to charge for tommorrow to go.

ad - PASSION

Hikki's new CD/DVD single "Passion" is officially released today!! Woohoo!!

My 100th post!! Woohoo!!

Tml wake up at 0600 for baito!! Woo........ :/

ad - movie

Who wanted The Nightmare Before Christmas again? I don't remember who already has, who hasn't...

... of being

It hurts to know I'm not good enough.

... of being shack

Shit. Don't you hate it when you're shack when you're typing something important, and something goes wrong? *bangs head on table*

... of old favourites

... really need a replacement for my ring. Tml tml...

ANYWAY!! I was telling Brandon and Steve... I mean, Yang Jun... I mean, Steve, I was back into "November Rain" by Guns and Roses.

What is this feeling you get with old songs anyway? Think there are 3 types:
1) Reminisce of the enjoyment of the songs
2) Attached memories with the songs
3) New found meaning in these songs

Well, recently dug up my "'96 New Top Hits" (yes, back when piracy was not restricted... hehehe), and really got back to my days of "One Sweet Day" (M. Carey & BoyzIIMen), "Naked and Sacred" (Chynna Phillips), "When Love and Hate Collide" (Def Leppard), "Exhale (Shoop Shoop)" (Whitney Houston). The ultimate was still "Gangsta's Paradise" by Coolio. COoooOL song!

Wonder if I can find any more old songs buried...

... of a musical b-day

Uh-oh, I didn't give Shaoz any bdae present!!

Well, actually I did. Didn't even tell her it WAS. Unorthodox, I know. 40 'cherry bombs', which I name "First Time". Sweet. Sour. All nice. Well, if not... put it on my tab! o_O"

(See Carol, I'll probably do better than you in Home Econs!)

Shaoz' home was like a entertainment centre loh. KTV downstairs, PS2 arcade upstairs, food court to the left, snacks everywhere, and Princess Lily as the house mascot. Kinda shuddering to know if she masters the salute everytime she sees me. Good to know that'll never happen... Anyway, we need to bring all the Japanese karaoke songs to her house. Great "KTV" seesion. Haha... I chop the black cushions!

Finally got to see Shaoz play the violin. It's a wonderful instrument. Though I can't really appreciate the duet that she played with her sis, the texture was still soothing in a way. And she has the exact same score I have for "Victor's Piano Solo". You still got the pdf for "Jack and Sally Montage", Shaoz?

Oh, yes. I lost my onyx ring. :/ Must go get another...

Diving into Bohemian Summer!

And Happy Bdae again, Shaoz!

ad - incomplete!

Argh... I didn't complete my new twisted work.
FOR AN OBVIOUS REASON LOH!!

love

To laugh.
To cry.
To suffer.
To fly.
Excruiating torments, as suspend leers the waiting heart.
Heavenly lift, as a touch replaces demented discorded art.
Thus life's proof,
In a single truth.

I love.
I live.

- Henry Rogers

... of a class outing

Woohoo!! S4 outing today!! So good to see old frens!! Really thankful for them to take the time out to meet everyone. Winnie's so chatty (in a good way!), Peili's changed so much, and “月风“'s still that quiet. And I just found another mambosexual to go Mambo Nights with me!

Saw Suen Cin also! Genki desu ne... Didn't take photo... :'(

Speaking of photos, I'm not going to trust an outsider to take group photos liao. Spoilt the group photo! ARGH!

Hmm... it was partly a food tour day too. Ate so much...
1230 - Lunch. Horrid Mushroom Tofu.
1520 - Big Popcorn Bucket
1800 - Marche
2100 - Double Scoop Ice Cream

I know, not really much, but proves my ability to eat some more. No problems for future whole day food tour!

Oh yeah. Learnt a new phrase: "single, but not available".

Argh... getting lazy liao. Cannot... cannot...

t'was the night of our baito

T'was the night of our Baito,
When all thru the night,
We became karaoke siaos,
Then to Maxwell for a bite.

As we parted our ways,
Four waited for a ride.
Long it was in the rain,
Past midnight, a taxi arrived.

- Henry Rogers

... of taxis, pets and nicks

Argh, tonight's taxi really took a really long route. But to be sheltered from the rain is really comforting to know.

And the lightning won't be able to hit me in the rain because I'm 22 years old. Proof? The gods got so angry that I found out this secret, and made us wait for an hour for a taxi. In the rain. Tired.

But happy!

*Salute!* is my first nick that doesn't require you to open your mouth to call me. Wow.

Perfect birthday gifts! Pets Over Night Dot Com (from GTA3)

pg - qi li xiang

Just when you thought 七里香 was beautiful, in pops 骑 李湘... *slaps forehead*

pg - it's not...!

"Flying Without Wings" lah! Not "Frying Without Wings"!

... of christmas songs

Today went out for dinner, and this restuarant was playing Christmas songs. I mean those karaoke types on television like when you go for karaoke. Damn bad video...

Anyway, realised I only know 9 of the 15 Christmas songs. This means these 22 years I only got to know 60% or less of all the classic Christmas songs out there.

Hey, I can't help it if there are titles like "Grandma Got Run Over By a Reindeer"!

Hmm... this year "All I Want For Christmas" by Mariah C. and "Blue Christmas" by Bon Jovi are still going to vie for number one on my Favourite Christmas Song Chart.

... of running

Yeah! This is my first time bringing my iPod along with me for my run.

Of course, I was careful about it, since iPod uses a hard drive. There were quite a lot of concern over whether it would damage the iPod in the long run. But research helps, and I brought it along, knowing how iPod uses its small flash drive it has with the HD.

Running along to Eurobeats was fantastic. You no longer need to pace yourself; the beat does it for you. And of course, I strode along to the heart-thumping tunes from Initial D Stage 1 like "Space Boy" and "No One Sleeps In Tokyo". But then "Heartbeat" had so many beats I almost died of a heart attack listening to/following it... *GASP*

And no, I did not blast the music, y'all. "Not good for your ears!" I know, I know. And I didn't want to not able to hear someone saying, "EXCUSE ME!" jin pai seh leh...

Outran an OCS guy! Woohoo! Officers... PUI!

... of dreams

Been having continuous nights of nightmares lately.

Thank you Hikki, for a song that stirs the passion in my heart. The fall of sakura petals, the drums that echo, my Queen. I'll finally be able to sleep well this night.

PASSION

(by Utada Hikaru)

思い出せば遥か遥か
未来はどこまでも輝いてた
きれいな青空の下で
僕らは少しだけ怯えていた

懐かしい色に窓が染まる

前を向いてればまた会えますか
未来はどこへでも続いてるんだ
大きな看板の下で
時代の移ろいを見ていたいな

二度と会えぬ人に場所に
窓を開ける

思い出せば遥か遥か
未来はどこまでも輝いてた
きれいな青空の下で
僕らはいつまでも眠っていた

ずっと前に好きだった人
冬に子供が生まれるそうだ
昔からの決まり事を
たまに疑いたくなるよ
ずっと忘れられなかったの
年賀状は写真付きかな
わたしたちに出来なかったことを
とても懐かしく思うよ

don't ask

Don't ask why my heart beats so fast.
You don't ask why the stars shine,
Or why dreams are sweet.
Don't ask why I love you.

- Henry Rogers

pg: pets

I used to have a dog.

Triumph the Insult Comic Dog!!

pg: bird flu attack!

@_@"

here

... of matters late

Alot of things happened lately, but I'm back!

1) I don't have free time. I manage mine better than you do.

2) I've lost my old self, so I gotta build myself from scratch. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu. (Unless Rina's got a clue where I was...)

3) The reason I've been using white fonts is to ease myself for a transition. I KNOW not to use white fonts against bright bckgrd. I'm stupid, not dumb. (Oh, that stupidity remains in the new me. Live with it.)

4) My friends have Realists as good friends. Good.

5) How to remove the 7 Sins? By abandoning Ego.

6) I have great recovery skills. Don't look down on me.

7) Those who have seen GTO manga will know how I got my blog title. Yoroshiku indeed!

8) Love the fonts, so not planning to change. Hope the colours and design are dull enough. Revamp will only take place after exams.

9) Gd luck for exams to all except Vinc who has already completed his. I know I'll need it. Let me know how your exams turn out, ya?

Enjoy my "inspiration" during my studies of history of Japan! Out.

life of a japanese emperor

(Sing along to Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive")
(and try to imagine the Emperor dancing John Travolta style, with his servants doing backup dancing with featherdusters and tea pots...)

At first I was afraid,
I was petrified.
Kept thinking I could never live
With that sword by your side.
And then you killed the rest,
And next you left me here alive.
Ieyasu...
Wonder if you're a bane or a boon.

And now you're back
From Osaka,
With Hideyoshi's head and even
His wife tied down to your bed.
I should have set a marriage law...
I should have set monogamy...
But if I really did,
Dear God, what will happen to me?!

Go on now, walk out the door.
You are Shogun now,
Don't ask for gay marriages anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
You think I'd crumble?
You think I'd lay down for thy...?
Oh no, not I!
I will survive!
As long as I know how to "做！"
I know I will stay alive!
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
And I'll survive,
I will survive!

It took all my wives I had
Not to fall apart.
Kept trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
With Hideyoshi's son,
And some of the mornings
With Hideyoshi's buns.
Now you see me
Somebody new!
I'm not that chained up little person
Still in love with you.
And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free.
Now I'm saving all my loving
For your dogs that are loving me.
(hey hey hey, stop rubbing against me till the song's over, dammit!)

I will survive!
As long as I know how to "干！"
I know I will stay alive!
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give,
And I'll survive,
I will survive!

- Henry Rogers

stppoed biolggng

-------------------till---------------------------i--------------
---------fi----------------------nd------------------------ mys-------------------------------------------------------elf
w--------------------------ho----------------------------------
---------------i---------------------------------------was

mambo nights

(Sing along to Bon Jovi's "Blaze of Glory")
For mambosexuals!

I wake up in the morning
And I raise my drunken head.
Got a drink jug for a pillow
And the road was last night's bed.
I don't know where I'm going,
Only God knows where I've done:
Jugging down magaritas,
Long Island Lover,
A night of Mambo fun... YEAH!!

When you're brought into Z-Zouk
They say you're born "Ah Beng".
Well, at least they gave me two drinks
With 20 bucks of enterance's pay.
And played without a warning
"Love in the 1st Degree"!
Then followed by "Square Rooms",
And "Summer Rain",
My hands starts to move with glee...

I'm going down in a blaze of Mambo!
Dance right now, or learn the moves.
I'm going down in a blaze of dancing!
Lord I never danced hard,
But my arms grooved hard
All the way till three.
That's me - MB.

You ask me about my talents
And I offer you Retro.
You ask if I'll grow out of Mambo
Well I ask if I'll grow old.
You ask me if I known love,
And what it's like to pick up at the bar.
Well, I've seen love come,
And I've seen it get drunk,
I've seen it get too far.

Too far in a blaze of Mambo!
Dance right now, or learn the moves.
I'm going down in a blaze of dancing!
Lord I never danced hard,
But my arms grooved hard
All the way till three.
That's me - MB.

Each night I go to bed,
I pray the Lord my soles to keep.
No, I ain't looking for forgiveness,
But before I'm six foot deep...
Lord, I got to ask a favour,
And I'll hope you'll understand.
'Cause I've lived nights to the fullest,
Let the boy control the dance.
Staring down the dance floor
As I take the podium stand...

Go down in a blaze of Mambo!
Dance right now, or learn the moves.
I'm going down in a blaze of dancing!
Lord I never danced hard,
But my arms grooved hard
All the way till three.
That's me - MB.


- Henry Rogers

... of my first baito

My heart is so sour.

I miss Reika, Erika, Misako, Yuichi and Horu Otoko Mai Chisato!
:'(

... of first times

These past weeks have been a period of many firsts.

First time meeting Japanese students.
First time going to do Baito.
First time having a lecturer purposely giving 50 percent when I scored only 35 percent. (PURPOSELY, not count wrongly.)
First time having a terrifying toliet experience.
First time having a comm problem.
First time getting the highest essay grade possible in Film and History.

All these mean one thing: First time I'll actually fail my exams.

But my guts are telling me otherwise. No signs telling me otherwise too. *wonder wonder*

36°C

36° when it rains.
36° when you're sad.
36° when we stroll.
36° when I'm glad.
36° when the sun goes down.
36° when the bus comes round.
36° when we say goodbye.
36° are the tears we cry.

- Henry Rogers

... of speaking

I should be dumb.
I'm not going to open my mouth for useless words anymore.

I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

pg - quoting

Almost put "The Godfarter". Phew....

pg - identity crisis

mrbrown is also known as 'mb'?!
There's a 14 yr old same name as me?!
How? How? How?

pg - french

I learnt how to pronounce "comment allez vous" today.

comment allez vous = co mo 打老虎

pg - counterstrike

If Counterstrike was played by chickens...

"FIRE IN THE CLUCK!

COUNTERCHICKENS WINS."

... of the strong

"In this world, the weaklings feed on the strong.
Are you happy hanging around weaklings?"
- Gaulun, FMP TSR

It may sound like some 'survival of the fittest' logic, but there is more truth to it than it seems.

It hit me kinda sudden because I realised why I consider some of my friends my friends - they are stronger than me. I don't know what "feeding" is, but it can't be all that bad, can it? Hahaha... They make you stand when you fall.

And because of that, I want to be strong too. Maybe I can't be strong, nevertheless I want to. That's all I really need to know.

pg - fmp!

I love Chidori!!
I love Sagara!!
I love Chidori's blue hair!!
I love the OSTs!!
I love FMP!!
I love Chidori!!

vows

With this hand I will lift your sorrows.
Your cup will never be empty, for I will be your wine.
With this candle, I will light your way into darkness.
With this ring, I ask you to be mine.

- Victor Van Dort, Corpse Bride

pg - when a fren opens a business

I never knew!

exams...

No exam no need study.
Got exam then need to study.
Major exam then must study.
Minor exam then forget it.

- Carol Hime

pg - earphone story

A story about my iPod earphones dropping very often.

DROP. Still working.
DROP. Both sides damaged.
DROP. Back to working.
DROP. Both sides damaged.
DROP. Only left side back to working.
DROP. Both sides back to working.

THE END!

... of signs

Do you believe in signs?

Actually, I do. And usually they don't lead me astray. Hopefully it doesn't this time. *pray*

... of loser

I AM DUMB.
I AM LOSER.
:'(

... of chocolates

Wooooohoo!!! I've just gotten M&S chocolates!! Authentic one, oK? All the way from Europe! Not the ones you go down to Orchard to get. Got 2 sticks and one whole bar!! Wooooohoo!!!

... and I'm sick.

*er-herm* ANYWAY, The sticks were watery and actually bendable when I got them. Can tell got no more shape. Two nights of air travel and this is what happens... Hahah...

Since with the recent chocolate issues, I'm putting up what my cuz posted recently:

"It's not that chocolates are a substitute for love. Love is a substitute for chocolate. Chocolate is, let's face it, far more reliable than a man." - Grace Graciala

I'm not even going to start. Debate all you want. In the comments, that is. Leave my tagboard alone, you lazy bums. *BLEH*

pg - blood

Eh, think I missed the blood donation drive.

Anyway, I think all this blood donated goes to the vampires. So that we won't have them turning against humans, and find mysterious deaths of blood-dry corpses with two holes in their necks.

Due to the recent increase in vampire population, there IS a shortage of blood. So when their slogan says "save a life, donate today", they're saying donate today or get sucked dry by a vampire. Save your own life.

Hmm... temperature check. 38.9 degrees. Yupz. Got fever.

... of having fever

Argh! I hate being sick! *duh* And I still have to struggle to school to hand in two due essays. But had a chat with Carol on MSN which was the usual fun! Really helped along the essay I was only halfway through. Handing in essay is a good excuse for me to visit the free doctor in NUS, but seriously, I would prefer my family doctor. Been going to him since I could remember... Dr Sun. A good man.

But being sick... argh! I couldn't smile to the usual beats of Gamble Rumble, UTAO-UTAO, Sakuranbo! The fever, sore throat, tummy aches from coughing and vomitting are such a burden. It's like you want to smile but can't, staying in a neutral state of emotionless.

Now as I write this, my flu has began. Can't even enjoy my animes properly sia. Hey, I didn't even laugh at the last episode of "Trick"! It's a bit serious ah...

Drowsiness kicking in... I shall go and rest, even after the 8 hours of sleep I've gotten since 11am.

Wait, a song's coming into my head... "badgerbadgerbadgerbadgerbadgerbadgerbadger.... fever beaver! badgerbadgerbadgerbadgerbadger.... fever beaver!"

I hate myself. :)

bob the cockroach

(Sing along to Dick Lee's "Fried Rice Paradise")
For Bob the Cockroach!

I know a pal whose name was Bob.
He told me, he told me
That one day he will make it big.
Crawled around in AS3,
Tried its luck in M.c.D,
Found a corner sparkling clean and
Thought he found a place to live in,
But other roaches just laughed.
Poor guy didn't know what to do.

Brown roaches to diseased ones,
They told him, they told him
That he should just conform with them.
Eating scraps from rubbish bags,
Spread diseases and all that crap.
But Bob just got fed up then he
Took a knife to murder all them.
Looked around but there's no one.
Chopped their bodies into pieces few.
So what did he do?
He opened

Fried Lice Paradise!
Nasi Roaches very nice!
Meat's a "secret recipe",
99 varieties!
Fried Lice Paradise!
"Crunchy"'s how it's been described,
Booked a table? Very wise!
That is what I would do...
To jump the queue!

Two years past and very fast,
He told me, he told me
He had to go a little more.
Scrouged around in Chinatown,
Won't believe what he found:
The skin of worms, the eyes of flies,
And even all the spider legs.
Attracted all the vultures,
And even fish dissectors too.
Well, what did they do?
They just loved...

Fried Lice Paradise!
Nasi Roaches very nice!
Meat's a "secret recipe",
99 varieties!
Fried Lice Paradise!
"Chalky"'s how it's been described,
Booked a table? Very wise!
That is what I would do...

Wo-o-wo-o-Chow Bob Baby...
Ooo, Chow Bob Baby...
You're my Chow Bob Baby!
Red, Hot Chow Bob Baby! Baby!
You make oh-me-e crazy!
Mantis... tastes like piss.
And black widow's "OH NO!"... ANYWAY,
Oh what, oh yeah, what else can I say?
I like my Chow Roa-ches anyday!

Maybe you have eating blues,
I tell you, I tell you
That there's a place for you to try.
Where the feelers are plucked out,
Leaving only heart and gout.
But believe me when I tell you the best food beneath the sun:
Chow Roaches with extra legs...
Bobby's waiting there for you!
So what should you do?
Head down to...

Fried Lice Paradise!
Nasi Roaches very nice!
Meat's a "secret recipe",
99 varieties!
Fried Lice Paradise!
"Chicken"'s how some has described,
Booked a table? Very wise!
That is what I would do...

Fried Lice Paradise!
Nasi Roaches very nice!
Meat's a "secret recipe",
99 varieties!
Fried Lice Paradise!
Sambal roaches', lowest price!
Booked a table? Very wise!
That is what I would do...
If I were you!

- Henry Rogers

... of helplessness

Many a times I've seen my friends lost in pursuit of their dreams - to want, to be, to achieve. Or simply they don't feel well, or don't feel happy...

What should I do?

So often, I get lost myself. If I am a friend, a sibling, or even a stranger, is there anything I can do? Not as jester, not as comforter. And thus the point of "I don't have to" is the only logical conclusion. Wait. Wait for a change.

Well, I'm telling you it ain't comfortable. It's disconcerting to know someone's sad, and even more discomforting to wait. Anyone who has waited before knows how painful it is.

What should I do?

*ding* Time's up.

... of reminiscence

Do you remember your childhood? The JMC uncles (and one happy auntie) remembered a lot of things in our primary school era (1990-1995)...

Sticker albums. Dragon ball cards. Idol cards. Grasshopper catching. Spider catching. Zero point. Hopscotch. Play strings (or "cat XX". Nic nid ur help here). Monkey bars. Rubber band "tricks". Fragrace peddles. Eraser games. Ninja origami darts. Staple traps. Stephen Chow movies. Can-make-it horror movies.

Am I missing out anything?

... of sofas and beds

Beds are for people with no worries.
Sofas are for those who do.

I've been sleeping on the sofa too often lately.

Look, I almost failed two tests.
3 essays incomplete.
Haven't been doing my tutorials. Not one.
I do not understand my 3 math courses.
Lost a library book.
Can't even learn Japanese properly.
Can't think properly.
Can't do work properly.
.
.
.
Shit. I bet I'll fail suicide too!

If anytime in life I feel like a failure, this would be one.

Off to the sofa now. Nitez. By the time I wake, I won't even rem this post.

pg - new vocab

... and there was "destructophile".

pg - It's not...!

Baby Sister lah! Not Babysitter!

at the karaoke

(Sing along to Matchbox 20's "Unwell")
For karaoke luvers!

All day sitting at the karaoke,
Hearing voices in my head.
All time I can hear them all saying
That I should sing more songs
Because then my voice might be good for something...

Hold on!
Feeling like I'm headed for a
Sore throat...
But, I should heck care!

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell.
I know, right now you can't tell,
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see,
How I go off key...

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a hearing impaired.
I know, right now you don't care,
But soon enough you'll be stopping me,
From grabbing the mikey-ee...

I'm singing to myself in public,
Hoping people'll sing with me.
And I know, I know they've all been itching to tell me.
I can see them flinching,
And it makes the owner think that his windows
Are close to breaking from my screeching singing.
Somehow, I've lost my voice!

But, I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell.
I know, right now you can't tell.
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see,
How I go off key...

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a hearing impaired.
I know, right now you don't care.
But soon enough you'll be ordering,
"A pair of ear plugs, please!"...

I've been singing in my sleep!
Pretty soon my bro will come in,
Yeah, pillows thrown at me...

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell.
Told you, right now you CAN tell.
When I sing Bon Jovi or some high key,
How I go off key...

I'm not a Hung,
I'm just a hearing impaired.
You see, right now you DO care.
Soon enough you gonna start punching me,
From grabbing the mikey...

How I go off key.....
Badly go off key.....
Can U-RU-SA-IIII.....?
Please don't faint on me.....
Can't even hit a "B".....
How I go off key.....

- Henry Rogers

a walk in the rain

Light rain falls,
Childhood calls.
Happiness,
My smile bursts.
Getting wet.
I care not.
Steps of tap,
Rhythm trots.

- Henry Roger

... of simplicity

Nobody believes in simplicity anymore. Never thought my motto could be challenged thrice in a week.

LIFE:
As we grow older, we take up more responsibilities, have less freedom, need to work, take care of our elders... marriage does even worse! But why we stress ourselves over these things that have yet to come? It's as though we're not going to like our future.

Dun get me wrong. I think it's fantastic that you have a direction in life, and the drive to get what you want. Understand that it poses a lack of understanding on my part. Future is uncertain, is it not? If I have to sweep the streets someday, then there must be a reason my fate/destiny is so (eg. retribution for writing too many satires :p). Fate shall present my options, while I travel wherever decisions take me. Simple.

LOVE:
It seems that there is no one who believes in simple and clean, fairytale-like romance stories. I believe that everyone can have one. It doesn't matter if you're not romantic enough, or in my case, not naive enough; you just need to try. Courtship, b4/after marriage, the later years... the fairytale moment will forever be embedded.

"You need at least one bad experience to grow, and to learn to approach love in a more practical way." - Rae. Logically, I understand. Ideally, why can't I have "one and only"? What is it about reality that makes this concept less real? Is that not the basis of idolism too? We CAN live a fantasy.

HUMAN RELATIONSHIP:
"It's complicated." - Friendster. Yeah, sure. Whatever.

Look, it's either you love, or you don't.
You hate, or you don't.
You want, or you don't.
You do it, or you don't.

Also, we should stop having doubts about others, about ourselves. People didn't talk to you because they didn't, not because you're boring. People are not caring enough because they aren't, not because they're selfish. Seriously, when your bf/gf is not loving enough when they don't read your mind, is because they can't! Relationship strains often comes because we have fantastic imagination. And things happen because they do. Not everything needs a reason.


Oh, end liao. And I'm not trying to persuade anyone to be simple. Just that I'm waiting for a lecture to start, so got extra time to think. Bwahaha...

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... of bio-nick-names

LSM1301 General Biology module teaches Bio *duh*, and on friday the classification and naming of spieces. There will always be a common name and scientific name for each. For example:

Common name - American Robin
Scientific name - Turdus Migratorius

Or even defined as "Batman's Sidekick". *cold wind blow*

How do they come up with these scientific names? It can be through their habitat, appearance, and/or lifestlyes. You can even name them in the honour of people, like naming it after LYK, or after Tony Blair. To do it, there are a few simple rules...

For gentlemen - we add '-i' at the end of their name, eg. "Johnsoni"
For ladies - we add '-ae', eg. "McNeiceae". pronounced as 'eh'
For family name or a group - we add '-orum'

What if WE had scientific names? I just take examples from my list on the right and we have......

Anxiang - Anxiangi
Brandon - Brandi. Defined: a good drink, or a good woman.
Kai - Kaii
Kaixin - Kaixinae. "Kai1 Xin1, eh?"
Gracie - Gracieae. Greek name.
Rae - That IS your scientfic name, ie your common name = "R"
Rina - Rinaae
Shaoz - Shaozae. Sounds kinda like a half-Chinese, half-Black American (or Chris Rock puts it, "Black-ke-nese") rapper.
Songming - Songmingi
Tofu - Tofuae. If fungae is to moldy, then you're fermenting well.
Ieyasu - Ieyasui. Defined: combi of "No (Japanese), Yes (Singlish), Sui! (beautiful in dialect)"
Wicky - Wicki

:edit: (juz had to add. *devil*)
Carol - Carolae. At last! A french name!
Nixxy - Unique case from scientific naming rule. Don Juan DeNixxy.
Sheryl - 2nd unique case. Ah-Sohae. Even the scientific name still very auntie leh.
Duck - Ducki. Defined: yellow bobbing squeaky bath toy.
Chicken - Chicki. Cheeky also acceptable.
Leon - Leoni.
Alex - Doggi. Doggy looks better...

As for me:
Roger - Rogi. It's Rogie with silent 'e'
Henry - Henri
Harahenta - ... let's not go there.
Rogerine - It's Rogerinei, not Rogerineae.
Orgy - Orgi. It's so wrong.
Georgy - Georgi
Magarita Boy - Magarita Boi loh. Singlish.
Rabbit - Rabi, or pulral Rabies?!

JSSorum and JMCorum ROX!

livin' on a prayer

(Sing along to Bon Jovi's "Livin' On A Prayer")

Waking up at 6 in the morn'.
I sleep in the lectures,
Note-taking is gone.
It's tough...
So tough.

Tutor sent back all his reviews.
Hard work for the essay,
This is how he viewed -
It's bad.
Hmm... real bad.

They say I've got to hold on to what I've got,
'Cause it doesn't make a difference
If I make it or not.
We've got the money and that's a lot for mirth...
Just give me a shot!

Wooah...
I'm half-way there,
Livin' on a prayer!
Take my life!
For I'm saying I'm sway!
Livin' on a prayer!

It's hard to contact Citibank.
They don't pick up phones,
And email is just blank.
It's tough...
Yes, tough.

At times I dream of running away.
In search of some advice,
They just...
Oh, chased me away!
"Go pray..."

I've got to hold on to what I've got,
'Cause it doesn't make a difference
If I make it or not.
We've got the money and that's a lot for mirth...
Just give me a shot!

Wooah...
I'm half-way there,
Livin' on a prayer!
Take my life!
For I'm saying I'm sway!
Livin' on a prayer!

Livin' on a prayer!

(guitar interlude)

You better hold on, ready or not!
I'll sing off my plight and will give it my all!

Wooah...
I'm half-way there,
Livin' on a bray!
Pass the mic!
For I'm singing today!
Livin' on a bray!

Wooah...
Downloading stuff!
Livin' on a bray!
Piracy!
It's turning real bad...
Livin' on a bray!

Wooah...
I hate my tests!
Livin' on a bray!
It's real sian,
And doesn't this end?
Livin' on a bray!

OK LAH!! FADE OFF LIAO LAH!!

- Henry Rogers

pg - It's not...!

Homo sapiens lah! Not homo spartans!

forgiveness

"I wish to be forgiven.
Yes, I want to be forgiven."

"*chuckle* By who?"

- Aeris answering Cloud's doubt

... of chee quays and grass jelly

Dental today. 2 extra rings (bringing it to a total of four) on your back bottom teeth ain't no kidding matter...

Anyway, same as always, after dental I would take a bus down to Tiong Bahru Market for a meal of Chee Quay. But the mood of the market today is different. Or so it seemed to me.

The morning fresh air depicting a scene of serenity.
A drink of grass jelly and the fragrance of chee quay.
The enchanting melody coming from my iPod.

Yes, I'm having one of those "moments" again. I'm blessed with the gift to appreciate the seemingly unimportant things in life, These very details seem to able to make me happy, grateful, relieved...

Should I go into "hibernation" mode, maybe I'm not really hibernating. Maybe I'm enjoying the small estacies of life. Maybe I'm wishing all my friends could experience what I'm experiencing.

How nice. The sun rises beyond the clouds and fill the market with warm orange light just this very moment. And I'm not describing a scene where I've just attained enlightenment. Haha..

pg - the sound of silence

Whey, how come no one gets the joke when I say I'm listening to Simon & Garfunkel's "The Sound of Silence"?

Yes. I refuse to believe that I'm not a comedian!

guilt in loving

Far other dreams my erring soul employ,
Far other raptures, of unholy joy:
When at the close of each sad, sorrowing day,
Fancy restores what vengeance snatch'd away,
Then conscience sleeps, and leaving nature free,
All my loose soul unbounded springs to thee.
Oh curs'd, dear horrors of all-conscious night!
How glowing guilt exalts the keen delight!
Provoking Daemons all restraint remove,
And stir within me every source of love.
I hear thee, view thee, gaze o'er all thy charms,
And round thy phantom glue my clasping arms.
I wake--no more I hear, no more I view,
The phantom flies me, as unkind as you.
I call aloud; it hears not what I say;
I stretch my empty arms; it glides away.
To dream once more I close my willing eyes;
Ye soft illusions, dear deceits, arise!
Alas, no more--methinks we wand'ring go
Through dreary wastes, and weep each other's woe,
Where round some mould'ring tower pale ivy creeps,
And low-brow'd rocks hang nodding o'er the deeps.
Sudden you mount, you beckon from the skies;
Clouds interpose, waves roar, and winds arise.
I shriek, start up, the same sad prospect find,
And wake to all the griefs I left behind.

- a verse from "Eloisa to Abelard"

... of darkness

"You are who you are!"

- Le'Stat, "Interview with a Vampire"


I've been lying a lot lately. And I hate myself for it. It's a problem when you have vowed to be true to yourself (or at least try your hardest to be) and it fails one way or another.

Not only that, you lose youself. You do things you shouldn't; and vice versa. Lies begets lies; the chain begins. As darkness swallows, you find that a metamorphosis has began. You feel thick viscousity of the air you breathe, your heart clamps in discomfort, you hands trembles in anger. (And yes, you have to respect those who can pretend to be alright when they're really sad. It's really hard.) Unfortunately, some senses stay sharp...

When you lose your ability to smile at that moment, your friends will know. That's where the darkness spread and affects them. Your senses are still sharp at this point. This plummets you to a lower level, for your guilt of making your friends feel what you are feeling feeds the darkness.

Apparently, the attempt to keep yourself to a low profile doesn't work sometimes. Cutting off the spread of darkness isn't easy, huh?

My point in all these - no more lies. Don't feed the darkness. That is the only way to stay 'yourself', and the truth to happiness. (This is of utmost importance for those who believe in dreams, but that's another matter for another time.)

Oh, white lies are ok. Yeah. Darkness is black. White lies are white. (I noe I noe: WTH?!)

rated pg - twisted math

Me = Sad --- (1) ,where me C {Friends}
Friends = Happy --- (2)
(1) x (2): Friends = Sad
Now consider, Friends V Me = T for Happy
=> {Friends}\{me} = Happy!

fish-gitive (fugitive)

(Sing along to Robbie William's "Better Man")
For Rae!

Send someone to save me
Oh, from this bowl of death!
When I do the math,
It doesn't add...

Look at all these corpses...
Fishes and roaches
And see those feelers?
Belonged to Bob.

Though I try to esacpe this bowl,
Raemarie won't let us go.
Lord, I'm doing all I can
To be a Fish-gitive.

Won't you look at us fishes?
How we're scared to stay!
Even Brandon says,
"Why are we here?"

Get Nagase's number!
To tell him quick,
That Rae is sick...
A Necrophile!

Quiet down, she's coming near,
With scissors, heading here.
Lord, I'm doing all I can
To be a Fish-gitive.

Everytime I thought that I had freedom found,
Then Rae came around.
Yes, she came around.

Suddenly I found myself on surgeon's ground,
No more "safe and sound"...

Oh my days are numbered!
Anyone can tell,
I'm in living hell
Within this bowl.

Don't you think it's better
Swallowed by a cat?
Did I mention that
That leg was Bob's?

All I ask is a quick death,
Before I go mad, like MacBeth.
Lord I give up trying hard
To be a Fish-gitive.

- Henry Rogers

... of sadness

There are 5 basic emotions in life. What emotion gripped the man as he sank into the gloom?
Was it Guilt?
Hate?
Shame?
Revenge?
Or Love?

(A modified small theory from Dr. Curtis McCabe in "Vanilla Sky".)

my dear candlelight

Heavy numbness fills my trembling hand
As I write my will, towards the final end.
'Tis fire fades slow in the dark.
My voice shall not echo, nor leave a mark.

My light is weary in your trembling light,
Oh, my faithful red wax candlelight!
For when I go please, oh please live for me,
Not soon St Peter's glamour you shall see,
But through love and pain we have as gifts
From our maker, we may never see.
Hard as it could, you shall soon forget me,
For I'm no more than a parasite to thee.
Parasite, I say, truthful and painful,
This life I've led wasteful as a fool.
I have given not warmth to you these days;
Just taken warmth as you melted away.
I have given not light to you at all;
Just taken light I had seen fit for.

Now, as I put out your burning misery,
For when I go please, oh please live for me.
Finally numbness escapes this writing hand,
Darkness shrouds. Thin smoke shines. The End.

- Henry Rogers

thoughts

thoughts are random & uncontrollable

its scary
esp when u dun wanna tink about sthing
but they relentlessly kept appearing

its tiring
esp when you are busy with studying
but they add on and kept e brain working

its unavoidable
esp when you are having tat rare teensy bit of rest
but they jus came nonetheless

its irritating
esp when u tried to shake it away
but they seems to linger and stay

- "Rina" Shuying

sadness and happiness

If sunset brings darkness,
I shall look forward to sunrise then.

- "Rina" Shuying

evil is a point of view

The pain is terrible for you.
You feel it like no other seafood
Because you are a stringray.

You don't want it to go on...?
Then do what is in your nature to do!
And you would feel as you felt with that goldfish in your arms...

Evil is a point of view.
God dissects indiscriminately, and so will you.
For no seafood under God are as you are;
None so like Him, as yourself.

- Le'Stat the VampiRea, "Interview with a Dissector"

i'm not a girl

(Sing along to Britney Spears' "I'm Not a Girl")
For JSS Exco & JMC!

I used to think
I have the answers to everything.
But ever since
I started to join in
JMC...

Feels like I'm caught in the middle.
Sometimes I have to cry:

"I'm not a girl...
Neither an Ah Soh!
All I need is time
To find the side that's mine,
While I'm in between..."

I'm not a girl!
And no, I do not wear purple bras.
And if you say
That I'm female because I like cute things... well...

Then more than ever now, I should say,
That Nic has to be more gay.

"I'm not a girl...
Neither an Ah Soh!
All I need is time
To find the side that's mine,
While I'm in between..."

I'm not a girl!
For if you look at me closely,
You will see my underwear,
In dark, it's luminous... purple.

I'm not a girl...
(The logo has nothing to do with sailormoon!)
Neither an Ah Sou!
(I was volunteered into sisterhood, no...!)
I am sure this time,
(No, no need some more time)
I KNOW which side is mine!
(I'm just fine)
Oh, why can't you see...

Never a girl!
Neither an Ah Sou!
Really, sure this time, (No, no need some more time)
100 P straight guy! (I'm REAL fine)
You must believe me!

Never a girl...

Neither an Ah Soh...

- Henry Rogers

up where we belong

Love lifts us up where we belong!
Where the eagles fry,
And the mountains cry!

- "Ah Soh" Sheryl, and her rendition of "Up Where We Belong"

spell of silence

Invisible, surely, slowly,
The rough vines graps the neck tightly.
I struggle for the stale cold air,
But the burning strings begin its tears.
Darkness claspes my sickly heart,
Recalls 'here and thens', scars and marks.
Turn around for gasps of light,
The red glow but retreats to fright.

"Lower your head" she slowly whisps,
But not a drop of esuna's mix.
She walks away, further, farther,
Adding to hate my hurting hurl.

Reaching, reaching, I try my ways,
Weakness claims to this body's way.
Calling, calling, I try to call,
Silent rains had my voice to fall.
Blurry sight by the blurry eyes,
The world shrinks you to ignored size.
I vomit blood and sanity,
That's where sweet sleep shall now take me.

- Henry Rogers

lies

I lied.
I hate myself.

- Henry Rogers

... of moments

BBQ on Saturday was fun and rewarding. It made me realise once more something I've experienced time and again, but never put into words.

It isn't about how much work we put in.
It isn't about how much we actually got to eat at the BBQ.

The moment calmness flows over you, you feel as though you are a camera panning on the whole scene. People talking in joy, engaging in conversations without a care of their tribulations outside the house. Satisfaction of a good meal. Smiles of a wonderful night. All fatigue fades. Not a drop of sweat meaningless.

Can you not help but let a sigh of relief that everything has gone well?
Can you not help but feel happy that your friends are happy?

What moments do we live for? That we should feel a sense of happiness, and that it'll remain to make our lives of something? I have found one such moment.

I don't need to sing at karaokes! Watching you people sing makes me happy!
I don't like soccer, but that doesn't mean spending time watching with the company of you guys is bad!

Just don't blame me for being too engrossed to take photos of these moments. :p

rated pg -- chickens

[RATED PG - PURE GARBAGE]

A wierd interview over MSN with Manish the Duck, and his study on his eternal rival, Vincent the Chicken.

Roger: So what do you think you can provide to my blog?

Manish: Ah... the theory of Chickeninity... law of Chickenomatics... and of course the sacred religion, Chickenism. *cluOOOMMMM* *cluOOOMMM* *cluOOOMMM* (meditates)

R: What in the world?!

M: im trin' to reach Chick-irvana *cluOOOMMM*

R: So how do you actually attain Chick-irvana?

M: Early Chickenism scholars claim that countin ur chicken feathers will get u ter... ..but the modern chicken scholar(vincent) claims tat u actually have to peck urself 367 times and keep sayin' *cluOOOMMM*

R: Who is this Chicken scholar?

M: someguy... conchicuos i tink..

R: Then you leh? You know so much?

M: im a history expert. i specialise in tis kind of... um.. exotic religions.

R: And you actually practice it?!

M: of corse NOT!! i practise ruletheworldism. it mainly focuses on the art of eatin' the chicken in the proper way..

R: Eatin chicken = rule the world?

M: hey... its the 1st step ok? even the karate kid had to wash walls 1st..

R: So you still at first step lah?

M: 2nd actually. 1st was it kill the chicken the proper way. kill it by beatin it up. MERCILESSLY!!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

(The interview ended by the duck trying to steal my MSN password. WTH?!)

... of poems

!! SPOILERS AHEAD FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NOT WATCHED "DEAD POET'S SOCIETY"

"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.

To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless -- of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" Answer. That you are here -- that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse.

That the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?"

- John Keating (played by Robin Williams in "Dead Poet's Society")

For those who actually finished the whole thing, I applaud you on Keating's behalf. Indeed, what will your verse be when the time comes...

And no! I did not begin writing poem because it's cute! It's the fundamentals of what I find fun in songs - the rhyme. We all write because we feel passionate about something, be it the big stuff like questions of our human lives, to the small stuff like making sushi. I did mine through poems that 'sound nice'. Simple and clean.

And no leh, somehow it doesn't help pick up girls. :/ You're WRONG, O captain, my captain.

Back to the issue, for I believe that poems are a great way to express ourselves. It doesn't need to be as great Shakey's "Romeo and Juliet". The poems we write are no less real than 'masterpieces'. We are THE masterpieces. Even the simplest of lines, and I strongly believe, makes the world and the people real. Remember the bohemain spirit of truth, beauty, and above all things, love.

So I pity myself for believing I wasn't good enough for literature. "You're not good enough." my teachers would say. Bah! Now I'm free, and more free with expression. Literature is meaningless. We, the human race, do.

diamond bright

Hastily named, the child of creed.
In waking world, we're truly maimed;
Sleeping dreams where men are free.
Crimson butterflies shall come to claim.

Juxtapose sweet surreality
Before these claws cut our candlelight.
What romance! Of love! Of dreams!
We, indeed, the diamond bright.

- Henry Rogers

"eloise to abelard"

How happy is the
Blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting,
By the world forgot.

Eternal sunshine of the
Spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, each
Wish resign'd.

- "Eloise and Abelard", Alexander Pope

Full poem here

okane-kami man

(Sing along to "Oogie Boogie's Song" from 'The Nightmare Before Christmas')
For JSS Exco!

[Mysterious Voice]
Well well well,
What have we here?
Bank Accounts, huh?
Oo! I'm realy scared!
So you're the money everyone's talking about.
Hahaha...

You're joking, you're joking,
I can't believe my eyes!
This isn't what I was told,
This can't be the right pie!
He's little, (but enough),
But that's explainable -
The ex-exco must have taken
For dinners they have burnt.

When Mr Okane-kami says
There's trouble close at hand,
You better pay attention now,
Cause I'm the Money Man.
And if you aren't shaking,
Then's something very wrong,
Cause I'm roleplaying a creature
Called Embezzel-mon.

Wo-oh... Wo-oh...
Ohh... Ohh...
I'm Okane-kami Man!

Well if I'm feeling itchy,
And there're many here tonight,
I might just start collecting notes,
Without telling you why.
And don't you know the one thing,
As heinous as it sounds,
At times there's a great increase
In my own accounts.

Wo-oh... Wo-oh...
Ohh... Ohh...
Yeah... I'm Okane-kami Man!

[ACCOUNT BOOK]
Release me now
Or you must face the dire consequences.
The excos are expecting me,
So please! Come, to your senses!

[OKANE-KAMI]
Hah! You're joking, You're joking!
I can't believe my ears!
I'm never gonna give you up,
You'll feed me full for years!
It's evil, I'm know that,
But I do not care that much.
And now with your permission,
I'm going to do my stuff.

[ACCOUNT BOOK]
Well, what are you going to do?

[OKANE-KAMI]
Transferring as much as I can.

(jazz interlude)

[OKANE-KAMI]
Ooooh....
The beeps of bank transfers
To me is music in the air!
I'll drain you out, till you're dry!
I'll leave you really bare!
What excitement, I must confess,
When money's in my bank.
And look at all the excos' eyes,
How they really sank.

[ACCOUNT BOOK]
Release me fast or Rae will come to
Dissect you into Sushi slice!

[OKANE-KAMI]
Oh brother, you're something,
You put me in a spin!
And Rae has only
A goldfish to begin.
It's hopeless. You're empty.
You'll never get it back.
Cause I'm Mr Okane-kami,
And you ain't going nowhere.

- Henry Rogers

jmc!

(Sing along to Bon Jovi's 'It's My Life')
For JSS Exco/JMC!

This ain't a song for the K-pop lovers.
No silent bray for the K-box croakers.
I ain't staying quiet when we're in the crowd,
Gripping tight the mic when the music comes up.

J-M-C!
It's now or never!
Excos do not live forever.
I just wanna sing while I'm alive.
J-M-C!
My head is doing poem fillers,
Raemarie's a goldfish killer.
I just wanna sing while I'm alive.
J-M-C!

This is for the ones who stood their ground.
For nicknames and jokes, we never backed down.
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake.
You'll be getting more nicks, you'll never have a break.

J-M-C!
Please let her change name lah!
Tell me why it's Rogerina?!
I just wanna sing while I'm alive.
J-M-C!
Even though I think it's quite wrong,
It's better than being "Bandung".
I just wanna sing while I'm alive.
Uso ja nai...

Better stand tall when Ryu's calling us out,
"Hail Hilter!" or gossips get around...

J-M-C!
His nicknames I don't care,
Why does Steve wear pink underwears?!
I dun wanna see while I'm alive...
Ai-yai-yai...
And even though I don't have girlfriends,
Nic says I can borrow just ten.
Man, it's good to live while he's alive!

J-M-C!
You girls stay away!
Or my laptop will be in two plates...
If it does, you won't be alive.
Can't you see?
I'll never get bored in JMC,
Singing high and going off-key,
I just wanna sing while I'm alive.

J-M-C!


- Henry Rogers

in the end it'll be rogerina

(Sing slong to 'Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Words')
For Shuying!

What I got to do to say I'm sorry...
What I got to do to take it back...
If I didn't had so many nicknames,
Then being "Roger" won't be that bad.

Wouldn't matter if we were at Mac,
Or even eating at the sushi bar.
Eventually they'd still give you nicknames.
In the end it'll be Rogerina.

It's sad... so sad!
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad... SO SAD!
Why can't we talk it over,
Oh it seems to me,
That petitions to change doesn't work.

We came up with a lot of other nicknames,
But in the end they still went with that.
Even though there were those that were cool,
This just proves the rest were just crap.

It's sad... so sad!
It's a sad, sad situation.
And I get more and more berserk.
It's sad... SO SAD!
Why can't we start it over,
But it seems to me,
That other nicks could be a lot worse.

Wouldn't matter if you are against it,
Or even if I make a fuss of it.
Eventually they'd still give you nicknames.
Eventually it'll be...
Eventually it'll be...
In the end it'll be Rogerina.

- Henry Rogers

band of brothers

From this day to the ending of the world,
But we in it shall be remember'd;
We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;
For he to-day that sheds his blood with me
Shall be my brother; be he ne'er so vile,
This day shall gentle his condition.

- 'Henry IV', Shakespeare

... or as I call him, Shakey.

dreams that men dream

The traditions passed down through the ages.
The passing of time,
The dreams that men dream.
They are all ineveitable.
As long as men continue to pursue greatness,
these things will exist forever!

- One Piece

... of conflicts

What are conflicts? We see them all the time. It's almost everywhere in every way. Politics, backstabbing, hate and pretend faces. But... should I have that little faith in people?

I'll start by saying what I want to believe. I want to believe that everyone does not in any intention to cause anyone else trouble. I cannot imagine being thought as the 'sabotager', but not realise that I had even in the mind to try to be so. So, surely the person that I have thought to have backstabbed me may not have intended so.

Ever so often have I encountered people who actually thought I'm trying to "play games" behind them, and believe me, I was shocked that I stood stunned for the next few minutes. "No! Never!" was I all I could cry out in my heart.

Perhaps I was given a gift to see things simple, or simply my esteem disallowed my anger, that I know that whatever unfortunate happens, there's always a reason. let me illustrate...

1) That guy cut queue in front of me, and made me unable to board the bus. Sure, he could have been just damned selfish. Hey, maybe he needs to get to the hospital fast to see his relative in the hospital.

2) My friend complained that his boss dumped him a pile of work just before he could go for his 1 month holiday, thus the boss dispises him. Sure, the boss could be damn biased. Hey, maybe the boss' boss is the ass here.

3) That guy backstabbed me again! I do a better work than you! That no good piece of crap! Sure, he could be just plain evil. Hey, maybe he's just plain scared of undermining my work, and asked someone to help provide suggestion to my work.

Yah, what are the chances? But remember there is always a reason of some sort. You know how it is, that sometimes when you chat with someone, and it ends up in sudden akward silence. I'm saying that somehow, bad circumstances land ourselves in discontent, and suddenly suspicion arises.

Also remember that our suspicion comes from lack-of- or mis-understanding. Would you suspect your best friend if he told you your work sucked? Of course not. Let not our short period of knowing a person control our logic.

But then, if you're sure that that particular person is just plain evil, go ahead and hate him. I'd probably hate him with you. Bwahahah.... (6)

I've been lucky I guess. The video unit I worked in had politics, but usually a unspoken consesus. Any conflicts happen b4? No! Because everyone could find someone to talk to in the department, and find out that their discontent actually came from a bad situation that befell the department. (DiTV, you rock.)

Now, having joined JSS, I realised that there were more issues than I could thought could be. Wished I had more time to understand it too. But one thing's for sure, I could be sure that the next generation has the ability to handle future ones. I stand witness the rapport, and know that we can be really open to one another. There is only a flight of soaring heights for the club.

... of a nation's birthday.

HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!

It's not everytime I'll have a comment on the National Day Parade, but this year's performances were exceptionally well done. I do not think highly of the ones before, and perhaps that provided me a great relief that there is still an anticipation for the next NDP.

A word before I start, though (for the purpose of wanting to end on a high note). Why does a nation display weapons on its birthday? While I can understand the innocent enjoyment of seeing military equipment that some could never see and get closer to again, I am constant bugged by the pessimisstic underlying motive of display.

The stand circular stand served as a central attention for certain parts of the importance, and the lights equipped around was well made used of for colours and patterns. Very smooth.

Long enough pre-performance took to parade, and quickly I was soothed by Act I of the performance. A simple, yet elegant enough animation brought in the introduction of the naming of our island, Singapura. Then onto the stage. The children played particularly well the roles of a variety of creatures, which included birds, squrriels, butterflies and elves (give them the asethetic praise, pls. hehe). Colourful and somewhat sweet was the key, and was a welcome change to the concept of majesty. Or so I thought, till a statue of a lion, standing over the awe of all. As Sang Nila Utama set foot on the island and breathed the word "Singapura", the fantastic music arrangement illustrated the echoing of the word, till it reaches the perfect harmony throughout the island. A high for end of the act.

Second act was dubbed "40 years of Nation Building", which continued to demostrate the fantastic music arrangement. Old, familiar tunes thrown into the whirl of our favourites - banghra beat, retro, futuristic fx-es etc. Along with the thrid act, was the perfect mix of the races. Heck! Why are we still stopping at 4 main races, when we are already the most globalised nation? Performers included people non-Singaporeans, which I thought was rather delighted about. For the third time, perfect.

For a man who believes in dreams, I do believe that we are a people. Big hopes, big dreams. Man, we're damn big for a small red dot.

... of heroes

I'm gonna share a secret about guys. And I'm not even supposed to tell you this.

You know when guys read comics, or watch superheroes (be it in movies or cartoons), they can't help but place themselves in those shoes. "What would it be like? What would they do? When will I have the glory?" You know, that sort of questions. Now, these are not fantasies. These are options.

Right, and you girls wonder why men often act tough, play games that "save the world" and do sports and go to gyms.

But can we really help it? Just look at Spiderman. Almost everyone can relate to him, his school life and love life. Just look at number of things we have in common. There's only one difference between me and Peter Parker. That means I'm only one step to being a superhero!

Yeah, considering all you are short of is a radioactive spider to bite you.

Now, don't go passing on careless judgements on men. (That's my privilege.) And no, I ain't quipping no gender jokes. I'm just gonna say that this phenomenon is a good thing. I mean, isn't it nice to have someone who is strong, dependable, always there for you at the right time when you need them, and always protecting you? That's what superheroes are, and what men strive to achieve.

Maybe it's just a society pressure on how a man should act. Nevertheless, it is still what men want, be it for themselves or for someone. We want to protect what or who we love. We want to be strong. We want to be able to do everything possible for the one we love.

What about our female counterparts? Well, I dun noe. I ain't no women. But don't compare them with others, let alone heroines. Compare us not with heroes too.

... of promises

"Broken promises. How can you handle it?
Broken again and again.
It's once too many, no matter who and what their breaking point may be.
Broken promises. Broken... you?"

What age am I living in? In one which I have so much expectations for, to have people flimsily say what they don't mean is a shock. This isn't the old Japanese society where everyone doesn't speak what they mean. This isn't some business deal where you are trying to get the best deal. We're talking about relationships. Relationship between friends, couples, and every conceivable human link. A relationship of trust.

Smirk, for the lead character has be misled by the villain in the movie again. That's what these unfeeling entities of the devil do. Smirk. As the rest of us frown upon the coming demise of the lead, we are being stabbed by their cold smile, reflecting the look of the villian off the screen.

Yet, there comes a point where a corner of your mind echoes, "Hey, everyone's breaking promises they made to me... What's wrong with me?" As we begin to doubt others, we have that we begin to reject our very being. A deep drum pound for the strong. A glass shatter for the low-esteemed.

Stop it! There's nothing wrong with anybody! There isn't anything wrong with the promise breakers, and certainly nothing wrong with you. Why are promises broken is because people's tendency to forget. Excuses? No, it's what I choose to believe. ANYWAY, it is true. A childhood promise is a simple example. Can you really blame people for forgetting a thing years past? Sure it's sweet to remember, but over the years it could have been stacked below many other memories. Not gone. Just forgotten.

Do not forget. And that's the best we can do. Keep one thing in mind, if breaking promises shows what they are, and if you do, what does that say about you?

... of losing

"Losing's a bitch."

Damn right, Donald Trump. Nobody takes a liking to losing. Never have I've seen anyone who cared for a game so much, lost, and still be able to keep cool. Let's see...

Donald Trump? That's right, let's take the boardroom for our first example. How is it that a team that has been winning constantly have not much qualms about anything turn so suddenly and eager to bite at the point of losing? Threat of elimination the cause - why not? But they lost. As simple as that.

The opening phrase was quoted from Mr Trump himself, which brings us to our second example. In the corporate world, people who work absolutely well with each other will start to blame each other in the event of failure, and I quote again, "all the time".

Local settings... local settings...

LAN gaming. Everyone loves a good game now and then. Of course, with good there's always the bad, and people just can't seem to accept it. It's a rosy world where everyone's a winner, isn't it? HA! What used to be infuriating, it now turns amusing and sad to see people starting to curse and swear at the weaker teammates, believing that their cause of loss is not themselves. Amusing because their illogical statements, like a silly character in a comedy to amuse the viewer; sad because how many new players have turned against the culture, and losing so many potential experts.

Soceer is also, how you say... wierd. How is it that classmates can talk to each other well in class, fight and threaten each other at soceer because they think they've lost pride in a game or when they lose, then go back to class, pretending nothing has happened? By all that is good, I have nothing better to describe these people but wierd. THAT'S RIGHT, class of 2B. Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about, wierdos.

Are these people bad? Only for the 2B guys, yes. You see, anger is an important emotion, and losing oft sparks it off. Dissatisfaction, fustration, sense of imcompetency, loss of pride, and maybe sometimes loss of tangible goods. My, these are surprising just few of the things we can lose just by losing! Can we pull ourselves back and say, "Woah! Better control myself before I do anything stupid!"? Nope, 4-letters words are already happily flying from your mouth like Teletubbies hopping around in La La Land.

Trust me, if you find people who can not lose it, those may be worthy friends. And for those who does lose their cool? Forgive them. Like you would of Teletubbies or Spongebob Squarepants.

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DAMN YOU SPONGEBOB! There, I said my piece. Sue me.

... of hand held gaming

If you are oblivious to what is going on in the world of gaming, in particular the world of hand-held gamin, I say it's about time to wake up to the New World.

In retrospective, it was not too long ago that the Game Boy was introduced by Nintendo. Starting out in 1989, it revolutionized the hand-held industry for being the first portable game system with interchangable game cards (compared to the bulky cartridges that Sega and NES uses). It remained a technological innovation, with no worthy competitiors matching its model, and retaining its success, with product improvements such as GB Color and GB Advance. Till 2004 that is.

It was not till mid-2004 when competitor Sony entered the market with its own version of hand held - the Playstation Portable (PSP). It is also about the same time Nintendo defended its kingdom with the introduction of Nintendo DS. It is futile to compare they successes right now, since not only are these products in their growth stage, they are susceptible to changes in the future (eg. PSP's online updates)

What are the fundamental differences between PSP and DS?

Upon physical inspection, PSP has the expected screen of 16:9, while DS offers a dual screen. More equates better? That's for you to decide.

PSP has well-designed, comfortable-to-use buttons, while DS includes a stylus (as advertised "Touch!", an attempt to create the word association in consumers). In fact, DS has risen itself to a higher level: direct interaction with the screen.

PSP reads its data through UMD (Universal Media Discs), while the DS retains its old method of game cards. PSP's motive is clear. UMDs are like mini-DVDs, able to store up to 1.8 Gig of data, including music, photos and movies. What this means is that PSP to moving itself towards being a portable entertainment system. Of course, DS chooses not to follow the same path, since it will mean that the price of the DS would shoot beyond what its customers are willing to pay for.

What I mean to "wake up to the New World" of hand held is the essence here. Sony and Nintendo has brought this industry to another level in terms of interactivity. DS's Touch has involved th stylus in chatting, organising and even gaming. Offering wireless connection, both consoles allows up to 16 connections with other PSP/DS users.

Perhaps the most distinctive high-tech feature within the DS is the microphone. Some games involve voice recognition, eg Nintendogs, where you, as the user, will be able to train the dog with your voice. Another amusement comes when you are required to blow (yes, literally) towards the DS to activate certain features of the game.

Did anyone saw this coming to hand held gaming? Perhaps what this suggests is that with today's advancement of technology, the gaming industy can really push itself beyond any gamer's imagination. And all we can really do is ask "What's next?"

fake wings

Shine bright morning light
Now in the air the spring is coming
Sweet blowing wind
Singing down the hills and valleys
Keep your eyes on me
Now we're on the edge of hell
Dear my love, sweet morning light
Wait for me, you've gone much farther, too far.

- Fake Wings

riddle of the mysterion

What lies beyond the furthest reaches of the sky?
That which leads the lost child back into its mother's arms;
Exile.

The waves that stain the land in gold;
The breath of blessings that nurtures life;
The land of wheat.

The path upon which the angels walk;
Thou art the path of great winds;
The Grand Stream.

What lies beyond the furthest reaches of memory?
Where everything is born and to where everything returns;
The blue star.<

- Last Exile

... of Anime

Anime - A style of animation developed in Japan characterized by stylised art. Comparative to art, it is able to relate experiences that have comed to pass, emotions that are, and feelings that could be.

Ah yes, the subtle difference between cartoon and anime has finally been cleared up. Or is it?

It is an unfortunate situation that anime has been undermined by many. Mistaken views of what exactly anime is about is a major hindrance to the actual development of anime in multiple regions. Anger grabs the passionate, who catches the wisp of saying “Anime is just a Japanese word for Cartoon”.

Ignorance is at hand here, folks. Had I been a better player in theatres, it would have been drowned by Shakespeareans curses. Or perhaps if I turned out to love insult comics, it would have been drowned by ‘Poop’. (For the curious, I’m referring to Triumph the Insult Comic Dog.) Yet I don’t. Once again, the reason for that is ignorance. (Don’t mistake what I say, for ignorance is neither a good nor bad thing. It happens.)

What? Is the bochup attitude at hand here? Then how is it that the anime culture is able to better penetrate Singapore society rather than other societies?

Being exposed to large number of influences, it seems Singaporeans will be blind to many influences, including the anime culture. You can’t expect a person to love Vietnam movies, Chinese songs, Japanese anime, French poems, Mongolian folk songs and perhaps another 10 different countries’ influence.

And no! I’m not defending these people from passionates. Being ignorant is not a bad thing, but it does not approve the right to negative comments. Learn, and stop your excuse of being ignorant. The anime culture is no longer just a simple influence that will die out soon. It has proven itself to be a considerable impact on multiple cultures (including Singapore, of course). Once again, our all power counterpart, the US has it own worry of the anime industry affecting it’s own animation industry. Look at Disney, and you’ll understand. Underestimating it, and don’t be surprised when it comes as a blow to the head. Emulation upon the anime has started. Emulation of style, of story, of values leading the way of the cultures.

... of dreams

At what point in life does a person decide that he should stop dreaming?

Try this. The next time you’re on the train, or perhaps even the lecture hall, look at the person to the left, and look at the person at the right. I am willing to bet that only 1 of you have a dream. 1 in 3! Heck, the statistics may show less than that… Sad.

And when I mean a Dream, I’m not talking about getting a degree and a stable job. I’m talking about the real stuff, like traveling the world, making a change in someone’s life. It need not be a sacrifice. It doesn’t have to take a lot of money to achieve. Outrageous would be closer, but that is called a dream.

And yet, when you actually think about it, it is nobody’s fault that people are deprived of dreams. Reality, is a cruel word. It is more likely that people are forced under circumstances. How can an orphan dream of having a happy family? How can a starving child dream of having all the riches in the world? Any nuance of dreams, they are snapped back by pain on the emotional and physical level. Dream too long, they are condemned doomed.

Ah? Those are the worst-case scenarios, you say? Come, let’s take an example closer to us - Singapore. How many students can dream big? I mean really big. Going to the moon? Not exciting. Travelling the world? No point. Creating a really big business? Too much risk. Picky, or just altered not to?

What’s in a dream, but hopelessness to many? Since it comes to the point where we do not get what we dream. It is true, and that’s why we are often knocked down by others. “It is futile.” “Don’t waste your time.” And yet eventually, they do not realize that it is in the adventure that we dreamers seek out for. Can you understand the excitement we have for life? Can you understand the romance in this pursuit? Then you will understand why we always get back to our beaten-off path.

What romance are you going for today?

it's only a fairy tale

Who are those little girls in pain
Just trapped in castle of dark side of moon,
Twelve of them shining bright in vain
Like flowers that blossom just once in years.

They're dancing in the shadow like whispers of love
Just dreaming of a place where they're free as dove,
They've never been allowed to love in this cursed cage
It's only the fairy tale they believe.

- Alyssa Searrs